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Waiting in Ignorance |
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The warm sunlight poured over the entire table, and its gentle rays caused
my tears to inadvertently wet my face, as well as my feeble heart. I always
think of you quietly like this, and then, in some casual moment, I use tears
to replace my thoughts of you, until I am almost suffocating. It's my
ignorance that makes me have the courage to stand still and wait quietly,
but can you really see all of this?
Ignorant as I am, I always silently hope that in some corner, or at some
moment, you can see me, even if it's just a glance. But you never did, just
like how the leaves cannot hold onto the fading flowers, I cannot hold onto
even a fleeting gaze from you. I know you hate me, otherwise, when I was
alone hiding from the rain in the corner, you wouldn't have left so coldly
on your bike; or when I was sick and didn't go to class, you wouldn't have
been so indifferent; or when I called you when I was sad, you wouldn't have
hung up the phone so resolutely. I know you wouldn't. Everything, including
the past you and me, is buried in a place called the past.
You left, so resolutely, without leaving me with any news or even leaving
behind a trace of your scent in the air. Is this the answer you left me?
Disappear from my world as if you had never been here? But I really can't do
it. I tried to drive you out of my world, but you just wouldn't leave. Every
night, I hold the teddy bear you gave me, thinking that by holding it, I can
find your shadow in my dreams. And I do find you in my dreams, but every
time you leave me with only a back view, so far away. That's why every
morning, I wake up with tears already soaking my pillow. But I'm still
willing to think of you quietly like this, even if it makes my heart hurt so
much that I can't breathe.
The sunlight was blocked by the clouds, leaving a gloominess, and you left,
leaving me with a world of sorrow. I'm willing to remain ignorant like this
for the rest of my life, because this way, I can wait for you quietly
forever. If one day in the future, you suddenly think of me at some moment,
please remember that I have been waiting for you in the same place,
silently, waiting for the past that can never come back. |
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Bathed in warm sunlight, tears roll down my face as my heart aches for you.
My thoughts of you are always with me, and I yearn for even a fleeting
glance from you. Though I am ignorant, I have the courage to wait for you
quietly, hoping that someday you will see me. But deep down, I know you
despise me. You left without a trace, leaving me to wonder if disappearing
was your answer. I try to forget you, but you linger in my thoughts, and
every night, I hold the teddy bear you gave me, hoping to dream of you. But
every time you leave me with only a distant view. Still, I am willing to
remain ignorant and wait for you, even if it causes my heart to ache. If
someday you remember me, know that I have been waiting for you, silently, in
the same place, for a past that can never return. |
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