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The bustling traffic continues to flow, with some people
still striving for their own lives, others still searching for their own
paths, and some laboring to achieve their dreams.
At 16 years old, with candles yet to be lit, I too am tangled up in thoughts
about my future path. As I look back on the past 16 years, I realize that I
have wasted much of my time. I have experienced both joy and sorrow, and
what I once thought I understood as a young girl, now seems naive. I used to
think about where to go and what to buy, always believing that happiness was
the most important thing. I even went through a rebellious phase where I
skipped school, drank, smoked, and hung out with the wrong crowd. I disliked
my parents nagging in my ear, but I now realize that their absence due to
work abroad was a factor that made them worry and my mother cry frequently.
As time passed and I matured, I gradually came out of my rebellious phase.
Although I didn't fully accept my parents, I understood their hardships.
Then, after being betrayed by friends and experiencing a family divorce, the
naive girl who used to smile every day became the guarded and untrusting
person I am today. However, I have come to understand that these experiences
were necessary for my growth. Perhaps I did not have the warmth of a happy
family or the embrace of good friends, but I have the small experiences of
my bumpy road to maturity, which have made me stronger. I just went through
these things earlier than most children.
Today, I understand that this world does not necessarily require warmth and
many friends. It only takes one close friend and my family to accompany me,
to make me content. I understand that if one does not learn to survive, they
will be rejected by the world and will not have a place to belong. I
understand that only by respecting others can one earn their respect. I
understand the importance of empathy and the saying that "retreating a step
will widen the sea and sky". I also understand that the answers to the
philosophy of life can be found in books.
God does not always open doors or windows for us. It is up to us to struggle
and find a way to survive, to search for a way of life that suits us, and to
pave the way for our future. |
